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Every muscle in my body was tight. My neck felt like it would snap if I moved too far to the right or left.
Being nearly wrecked by a speeding car with one of those COEXIST bumper stickers was only one frustrating experience in my 90-minute commute home.
Sitting in the car before going into the house, I spent some time praying and breathing, releasing anger, frustration, and negative energy.
It was a practice I had developed years before.
When I came home angry or frustrated, I realized that energy was projected into the house for my wife and children. All they wanted to some love and attention from dad. They didn’t need the negative energy.
It would have been better if I could not have gotten angry or frustrated from work or traffic, to begin with, but as with most things, the change started small.
My beginning was ensuring love and positive energy were projected into the home upon my arrival.
It is a bit like this thought from Emily Maroutian.
“If you're working on changing bad habits, unhealthy thought patterns, negative emotions, or toxic behaviours, know that you are healing a small part of the world by healing yourself. Everyone around you will benefit and they will be served by your wholeness..." ~
I was healing a small part of the world around me by healing myself and my attitude. Becoming whole in this area of life was serving my family.
It’s a big job healing the world. Too big for us alone.
As we grow into our Ikigai, we are healing ourselves and, by extension, bringing healing to a small part of the world.
That is a beautiful way of looking at it.
I have been in the process of healing myself for a little while and some days I feel I give two steps back and only one step forward.
Thank you for the reminder.